billygotstalent

So . . I've realized I delete a lot of my entries because I hate re reading what i BITCHED about. . I mean its just a total drag. . So I'll leave you with a poem I wrote . . and uhhhh a picture of THE TWENTY-FOUR YEAR OLD BIRTHDAY BOY AS OF YESTERDAY. . . He makes me happy in my pantalones.



Sometimes if you believe you are crazy
The easier it is to live in a sane world
The more you contemplate about the purpose of existence
The easier to accept that one day you are going to die

When you feel alone what are some things you do to make sure you aren't alone? Some things that make you realize "hey, I'm here. My heart is beating. Blood is flowing richly through my veins." How do you reassure yourself that everything is going to be ok?

Sometimes for me reassuring that I'll be ok is as simple as watching a movie that reminds me what its like to love. I'm 20 years old and I have yet to find the true meaning behind the word "love." Too many failed attempts I guess. Yet when when I watch a good movie that has a classic love scene where the leg goes "POP" I tend to forget all my past mistakes and welcome in the new ideas for how I am going to land the perfect guy. Sometimes being with someone isn't the right course of action either. Being in a relationship that has permanently damaged a beautiful smile to a sad drawn on smirk is not ok in my books. I guess its how YOU want your happiness. Its how YOU fix your feeling of alone and how YOU reassure yourself everything is going to be ok. No matter what the situation be that has left that beautiful smile tainted just remember to smell the roses as you walk on by. You've only got one life to live home skillet. Its just better you mess it up now and learn from your mistakes while your young. Then have your life catch up to you as your heading on your way out. We are only human and we educate our selves through mistakes.

Keep your chin high and dont give up. Someone is always there to listen.


the man who made me smile tonight.



NOTE TO SELF PLEASE Start writing and drawing more, your smile will show through the drawings and stories of a thousand unwanted lives.

Packing up my life. SUCKS.

BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA


This is the diary of someone who is NEVER home . . .

Live fast
Die young

Its just something we do while we go around the world in search of a better purpose
a better sound and a better sense of direction. .